It seems that as the wedding gets closer I am getting more stressed out. I had a slight meltdown last night but hopefully things will get under control soon. It just seems as though I have so much to do and not very long to do it. As of now my list looks like this:

Buy wedding bands
Get eye test
Buy new glasses
Get teeth cleaned and whitened
Buy stamps
Buy wedding party gifts
Plan 80s prom (buy/make decorations, invitations, food, dress... etc.)
Figure out ceremony details with the pastor
The guys need vests and shoes (although Josh has that under control)
Wedding license (Again, Josh is doing this. He's good at trying to lighten my load.)
Look into changing my last name
Start applying for a new job
Sell my jeep and get a little car
Work on my secret project (which I'll post about in a few weeks)
Go to Dr. Milne about my un-cured cough

... and there's more...

My head just starts spinning when I start to think about everything. Plus I'm doing all this and still working 5 days a week and doing bible study on Thursday and Saturday and church on Wednesday and Sunday. Yesterday Josh and I finally decided that I need to temporarily cut out church on Wednesday and Bible study on Thursday so that'll help but now premarital counseling will start up and that's going to take time too. Oh boy.

Well that's my life as a bride to be. I've been losing sleep because of all this. I hope I don't have a nervous breakdown soon...

My friend Adam Wormald introduced me to this radio show which is phenomenal. I'm a big fan of radio theatre and talk radio. This American Life has won awards for it's broadcasts and covers all topics from the prom to war to television to money to childhood... and it is incredibly entertaining and interesting. So if you want something to listen to during the day... while doing chores or just relaxing... listen to an episode of This American Life.

www.thisamericanlife.org

Josh and I were in a crafty mood yesterday afternoon and decided to take on some projects. Josh is working on a complex art project which is going to take him a while to finish... but I decided to take the simple road. I took a page out of my cousin Heather's book and made some picture frames! Here is how they turned out, I'm quite pleased. Thanks for the great idea Heather!

I went to the hospital and took a few tests. I breathed into some tubes hooked up to a computer... then I took an inhaler and breathed into some tubes again. The doctor testing me told me that my lung specialist (Dr. Keshmiri) will call me with the results but from what he could see my tests seem normal. He gave me some literature on asthma but told me that I probably don't have it. So it seems like we're back to square one... more tests and no information... ugh. Oh well... we're one step closer to the mystery of Rebecca's crazy lungs!

I have a doctor's appointment in Mission in 2 hours from now. I have to get my lungs tested some more. Hopefully after these tests we'll be a bit closer to the reason why I've been coughing for 9 months... but we'll see.

I started going to the doctors about these lungs of mine in February and so far the doctors haven't told me anything positive or informative. It's frustrating when no progress is being made over months and months of time.

I'm really hoping for some answers after today or at least some sort of temporary relief from this super dry throat and harsh coughing. I guess we'll have to wait and see...